EL DONDE ESTOY VA DESAPARECIENDO 

The pre-Hispanic history of Mexico is contained in pictorial codices or painted books produced by the Aztecs, the Maya, the Mixtecs, and others. Unfortunately, very few pre-Conquest codices survived the Spanish Conquest. Only about two dozen pre-Columbian Mesoamerican codices have survived the book-burning policies of some native rulers and Spanish conquerors. The tradition of codices continued in colonial times, producing hybrid manuscripts and following the transition of beliefs, styles and techniques.

Curious enough, most of the original manuscripts ended up in private collections and libraries in Europe, where they are up until today. Some of the most important codices are in Italy, at the Vatican library, in Florence and in Bologna. These books, condemned by the inquisition, ended up as treasures of vanished civilizations. The story of the books that survived is very complex as they changed hands and places several times. 

Since the start, different people throughout the years, a palimpsest of voices, styles and oral histories painted each book. The piece is composed of a 10 meter long drawing, based on the codex Borgia, that traveled from Mexico in the XVI century and now it is held at the Vatican library in Italy.

The drawing is animated in a film, which tells, from the point of view of the codex, the different adventures and transformations of the codex, from how it was saved from the flames when the Spanish conquerors tried to burn it, to its journey through the ocean, and the several attempts throughout the centuries to understand its meaning.

El donde estoy va desapareciendo, 2010

Drawing, india ink on cotton paper

El donde estoy va desapareciendo, 2010

Drawing, india ink on cotton paper

El donde estoy va desapareciendo, 2010

Drawing, india ink on cotton paper

El donde estoy va desapareciendo, 2010

Drawing, india ink on cotton paper

El donde estoy va desapareciendo, 2010

Drawing, india ink on cotton paper

El donde estoy va desapareciendo, 2010

Drawing, india ink on cotton paper

El donde estoy va desapareciendo, 2010

Drawing, india ink on cotton paper

El donde estoy va desapareciendo, 2010

Drawing, india ink on cotton paper

El donde estoy va desapareciendo, 2010

Drawing, india ink on cotton paper

El donde estoy va desapareciendo, 2010

Drawing, india ink on cotton paper

El donde estoy va desapareciendo, 2010

Drawing, india ink on cotton paper

El donde estoy va desapareciendo, 2010

Drawing, india ink on cotton paper

El donde estoy va desapareciendo, 2010

Drawing, india ink on cotton paper

The where I am is vanishing

Between shadow and shadow

Silently to walk on the mountain,

light-footed, invisible, mute

With giant graceful leaps

I go out at night to escape the arrow

The hunter turned deer in the attempt to trap me

Stealthily, moving cautiously among the branches

I, able to observe even the most imperceptible noise,

I am ears entirely

I perceive his movement, his hunger to trap me.

Thirsty after leaping so long, I close in on an arroyo under a half moon

The nightfallenness of all words sows confusion

I feel something burning me, the flower-arrow cutting through me

I’ve forgotten my name.

Anything would be possible except to be named Deer.

And where would I be then?

The where I am is vanishing,

Eyes, tongue, head, hooves, organs, flesh, skin

Each part of my body takes its leave, performs a different function

They place my head upon a stone

Put pulque on my tongue, as if I might still be thirsty,

They disrobe me

Peel the skin carefully away from my body

Open in a symmetrical pattern

They cut it into strips and then fold it into equal parts

joining it together to form one long long strip

Folded into an accordion it becomes a codex

In the midst of the abyss that opens between I and I myself,

I forget myself and change and don’t last.

 

El donde estoy va desapareciendo – Venice, 2010

Original drawing, ink on paper, leporello and a film (Video on high definition disc, 20 min)

Installation view ILLUMInations, 54 Exposizione Internationale d’Arte, La Biennale di Venezia, Venice Italy, 2011.

El donde estoy va desapareciendo – Venice, 2010

Original drawing, ink on paper, leporello and a film (Video on high definition disc, 20 min)

Installation view ILLUMInations, 54 Exposizione Internationale d’Arte, La Biennale di Venezia, Venice Italy, 2011.

El donde estoy va desapareciendo – Venice, 2010

Original drawing, ink on paper, leporello and a film (Video on high definition disc, 20 min)

Installation view ILLUMInations, 54 Exposizione Internationale d’Arte, La Biennale di Venezia, Venice Italy, 2011.